Grief: The Ugly, the Bad and the Crazy

Grief Journal: My Path of Grief

Grief Journal quote “Without you in my arms, I feel an emptiness in my soul. I find myself searching the crowds for your face — I know it’s an impossibility, but I cannot help myself.” Nicholas Sparks

These posts are all random entries from my grief journal.

I am a widow. My husband died unexpectedly. I am battling to create a new life where grief is apart of the day to day without debilitating me.

As the thoughts tumble through my mind I have the need to write something down, because by voicing what is running through my mind, I get to quieten my mind.

The same is true for the digital art I create and the clothes I make, it quietens the anxiety and thoughts that rushes through my mind.

I am brutally honest, I swear, I am unapologetically me. I do not mean to offend, but I will also not change.

I hope that my honesty and my story of survival can help inspire and motivate somebody out there. Maybe we can start a support community, where by shared experiences we can support each other.

This started out as a therapeutic exercise for myself, but turned into a blog so that maybe I can help just one person out there feel less alone. Or maybe there is that one person out there that can keep me motivated.

This situation, this grief, is a cruel place to be. The world, the others, will never understand what it is to go through each day with grief weighing you down. Only those that have experienced the same will understand.

We are like a community of lepers, different from others and in way excluded. We walk among others, but we carry a burden.

I keep on referring to us and shared experiences, but I truly believe that each person experiences grief differently, we might go through some of the same stages, but we each have to walk our own path.

I speak my truth, I do not speak for anyone else. I am not a counselor or a psychologist, I am a widow

I just hope to open up an honest conversation to what it is to loose someone and the journey I traveled.

You can read my various entries by following the links below, but my site also contain some great recipes and a travel blog. Feel free to click and scroll around, if you have a recipe to share please send it to me or leave it in the comments below. xxxM